With the bad comes the good

What a roller coaster we have been on. The real estate screamer has come to a halt. Frank lost his job yesterday. I've gone from devastation, to anger, to stress, to happiness, to relief, to excitement, to gratefulness, to sadness, to optimism.
When I first found out I was devastated. I couldn't imagine how we were going to survive, with not only no income, but no insurance.
Anger at the company for laying off one of the hardest working sales people they had, only because of corporate politics. We found out this morning that they chose to lay him off because the other sales rep might have taken an escrow officer with him. Never mind he hasn't brought in a new client all month. I HATE the corporate world! I want to ring their necks, I want to yell and scream at them and let them know how they are affecting so many people, but it won't do any good.
Stress over how we are going to make. Thinking of all the different options that might be available.
Happiness because Frank is finally out of the horrible real estate world. It's toxic, he hated dealing with a lot of the people, the divas, the pride, the greed, the stupidity.
Relief because he's out. Maybe this is the kick in the pants he needed to come work for our business (I better get used to calling it ours, it is going to be). Maybe this is God's way of saying you can do it. It reminds of a saying I used to know, I don't remember it word for word anymore, but it was an eagle standing on the edge of a cliff and God telling him to leap and he wouldn't do it, because he was afraid, finally he did and he flew. Not only did he fly, but he soared, maybe this is that push. The leap of faith, it wasn't a leap, it was a heave ho, get off the cliff!
I'm so excited for the possibilities of having Frank being able to work for home and concentrate on just Sum of All Numbers. I think that it could bring great things to our family. No more dealing with corporate and horrible Realtors and dirty lenders scamming people out of their homes and lives.
Gratefulness for all the people that have called and emailed saying they know of this job or that job or just to say how sorry they are. It makes you realize how many people really care about you.
Sadness. Sadness for Frank. He is such a person that took pride in doing a great job and working hard. It's such a slap in the face for him.
Optimism. I know that God never gives you more than you can handle and as the saying goes, when life gives you lemons make lemonade.